when she is around you definitely want to stay away and when times fly faster you will study further and that time she will never often came across in your mind. she will be just a memory of your supporter to support you study. yet, you do not realize she still sacrifice something for you. you still did not open your eyes widely until you do not even care how her feel there at home town still thinking about you. never stop thinking that you don't have enough money to eat there, maybe you don't get enough sleep or maybe you don't have enough book that might influenced your study there. But the fact that you there were having fun with you friends, when she call you deny and give a lots of reason and you just don't care what her feel.

when you need money to eat or to buy something, you call her and ask for money then she bank in, you cash out and just say thank you then you don't even ask how her day or even want to know either she was good or not. how can you be such a rude?

how many of you do this? all the sacrifice that she had done just to make her children get what they want never really get pay and they never ask once either, then how earth you do not appreciate her? why being such a dummy person?

people die someday and same like her she will gone someday, but before she was gone i'm dreaming that she manage to see me success in my life and say that she proud of me. with what i have done with my life, my success and proud to say that i am her pure daughter that she believe can success even though i know that it is hard to deal with my kind. i just want to be a daughter that she wanted. that all, she inspired me, she is the main reason why i still want to further my study and make a carrier of mine. if i got a chance i would say thank you ma for everything that you have done to me, i really appreciate all the things that you sacrifice for me. i know it is hard, i know i didn't feel it yet but someday i would, i know you mad, you disappoint at me but i try to be as good as i can. i know i make mistake and i want to be a good person of yours. i know there is no person deserve to replace you in my heart and i thank Allah you in my life, i have learn a lot from you. i really want to show you how i really love you but i just do not know how to show it. if this is my only chance to say i am sorry and say that i love you i just want you to know that you really means a lot to me. love you ma, <3.